This state, when you’re walking down the city full of people and feel love to all of them. Strange, inexplicable, physical or spiritual thirst.. What is more, I’m not only charmed  by appearance, gait, hairstyles and facial expressions of more classy part of the people around, but also I feel tender emotions at the sight of wandering, abandoned homeless and drunkards. I’m talking about the picture as a whole. And it is its integrity that is what so pleasantly intoxicates me. The tramp asleep on the bench can’t exist without the man with shiny hair in jacket and sneakers standing next to him. This may sound cruel, unfair, but I think so.

With all that, I know that somewhere among there particles there’s the man/woman, who stole my wallet in October, took my smartphone, which I had dropped in a bus or an old woman, who just came right to me and called “the Polish bastard” few months ago. I didn’t get her then. What was the problem?!

And yet there’s no black and white, depression and happiness in their pure kind. They do not exist like this – together and alone at the same time. They’re in a symbiosis. Constantly mixing and creating shades of grey. For an individual being it’s the personal perception, which is important.

Without this symbiosis how boring and terrible it would be around! I believe there wouldn’t be such a motion, velocity and diversity, which you can observe walking down the city. And every creature pleases the eye in its own way. Somebody makes me less glad, somebody more, but it’s not about me. It’s about how illusory is our belief that we’re all separated, even in megapolis cities. That we’re alone in this big world, like honey in a honeycomb  - each portion in its own cell. However, honeycombs, after all, if you take a look a little further away make up a coherent whole no matter what, right?

There’s one more situation, which almost makes me weep with joy and thank in spite all of the setbacks I have – it’s silence in nature. Sunset. Sunset in the deserted expanses of nature or a pink-purple sun-saturated sunset in the suburbs, on the streets of the private area. You can even loose the idea that you’re supposedly on a planet Earth and not somewhere else. On another more beautiful planet than Earth is, on which we live just as long as we keep underestimating it anyway. In paradise?

For me (at least) our planet it’s such a dubious kind of Eden. So many things you can enjoy, thank, but.. as many kicks too. Sometimes you get them for a long time, around every corner, especially if you’re trying to find loopholes or a short way to something. The Universe has a certain, extremist sense of humour. NEVERTHELESS. If you listen or at very least try to listen to it, the world is ready to reveal to you things about the existence of which you had no clue, since you didn't consider you needed to,

Life is probably more than a sequence, a leapfrog from a carefree childhood for which we’re nostalgic, to university, work, family and quiet old age. Life is a communication, between you and the world around, you and other people, you and yourself and most importantly between you and the Universe, you and God/gods depending on what you have faith in.

The last act of communication is the most mysterious and amazing, the only one of its kind. Your subconscious mind is always capable of such dialogue, it’s always ready, especially when your consciousness doesn’t jam, doesn’t shout declaring the presence, the appearing of the Ego. However, when you allow your mind, your consciousness to connect to the unconscious and spiritual part deep inside of you, then .. your conscious mind begins to see the world around as being full of various signs! In most of the teachings people, who know this sphere of feelings call the phenomenon a synchronization. What happens to you or people around you with no words lets you understand specific things (and you do understand them!), what you need/ don’t need to do and what may happen. They’re hints of course, but how they are implemented in the real world, in broad daylight is simply breathtakingly!

You want to cry, not to howl, but to allow the emotions to express themselves in a form, which you rarely cultivate. Tears, laughter, dance – depends on a person. I’m into tears more to be honest. The feeling of divine presence, the presence of the Universe, which participates in your (as you may perceive it)miserable, single life – is something truly gigantic. I embrace it as if there’s something opening both above and underneath you. It’s something you do not see, but sense with every cell in your body. You feel as someone significant and not so substantial simultaneously. You feel yourself noticed among millions. You’re not the only one, who is privileged to be noticed, but it’s just such a stupidly indescribable experience, which brings the greatest peace, a kind of pacification, inner love for everyone, joy. It’s a lot feelings to take in actually, however all you really need is to LET them in, pay attention and try to calm your mind from pointless chatting 24h a day.